Monday, April 17, 2006

An Update

I know you all think I have been busy with my many "boys", but a last I have not. I still haven't met the Miramichi/Newfie boy, he's a reporter with the paper, so he's quite busy or so it seems, then again maybe I am making exucses for him, the jury is still out on that one!

I haven't heard from the PEI guy since last weekend. I know he was going to PEI for the Easter Weekend, not sure when he is getting back, and he left the ball in my court asking me to call him, not sure if I'm going too.

The other guy and I have decided to be just friends. Which works out fine for me. So see, my list went from 3 to 0 in like almost a month and well most of them have been off my list for long before then!

In other news! I've gone and gotten myself a second job. I know, as if I wasn't busy enough with all the committees and volunteer work, I had to go add something else to my schedule! I work part time (mostly all weekends...OK ALL WEEKENDS) at a new Video Store that just opened in on the Northside. It's really rather cool how it works, and it's the first 24 HR video store in Fredericton. My boss's Doug (owner) and TJ (supervisor) are awesome men! TJ is pretty easy to get along with when I have days I need off or if I need to work around something. Works out great for me! Doug is pretty easy going too...altho sometimes I think he is a little too excited about the Adult Movies that he put into the machine. LOL. (yeah, I don't acutally have to handle the movies, they all come out of this machine). My reason for taking on another job is that I wanted some extra money for my trip to Scotland..I wanted to be sure that I had all my bills paid off and I had the money saved to go! So Jean if you are reading this!!! I'm really coming!!! Cuz heaven knows I'm not playing myself out for fun!!! LOL Well I am kinda!!! In the long run there will be fun!

I think that is all my updates! If I think of something else I will just have to post again! I'm gonna try to get better at posting...Ohhh yeah and I'm going to see INXS on May 7th, so if nothing else, I will be posting around that time..with the pictures and stuff!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Rains it Pours! Feast or Famon!

I go through months of not meeting any one new, of not dating, nothing...then out of the blue a guy comes a long that peaks my interest...not long after that there is another guy and sometimes another one after that..LOL

Boy Number 1 - Last Saturday night I went out to the bar with Dawn as we normally do on the weekends. I was having a good time dancing and stuff and then I see a guy that I had danced with a few weeks ago. I wasn't really interested in the guy but felt bad saying no to him so I went. The guy followed me around the bar. I immediately went searching for my friend Darren to save me! LOL I found Darren and he did save me! whew! Then I seen that guy hitting on another girl so I was relieved that he would be leaving me alone. Dawn and I headed to the dance floor. That guy was there but I just kinda ignored it until Dawn said he was left alone on the dance floor. I got scared..but he didn't approach me. At the end of the night, Dawn and I were doing our normal end of the night watching people dance to the slow songs because they are so drunk... we were laughing and carrying on...and then I seen that guy walk by past me. Dawn was facing in his direction she told me that he had stopped and that he was turning around..then I felt tap tap tap on my shoulder. The look of TERROR on my face must have been priceless. I could tell by the look on Dawn's face that it was not the guy that had followed me. I turned around to find a rather handsome Army Guy (yes I know...shhh lol) Chris asked me to dance and we talked a bit while we were dancing and then he asked me to go get something to eat with him and his "buddy" (everyone in the military are buddies)Dawn and I head out to the Diplomat for lunch with the boys. It must of went well because the guy asked for my phone number and I gave it to him and he called on Sunday. We got together for coffee on Sunday afternoon and watched a movie at my place that evening. He called me Monday night, Tuesday night and left for PEI on Thursday night. I guess we'll see if he remembers who I am on Monday when he returns to Fredericton. LOL

Boy Number 2 - Friday or Saturday I started talking to a guy I have talked to online several times before, it was always a good conversation, but we have never asked to meet one another. This guy is living in Miramichi, but grew up in Newfoundland (for some reason, I find newfies sexy) On Saturday, he mentioned that he would be coming to Fredericton on Sunday and wanted to know if I wanted to meet him. I thought he was joking at first so I had a smartass response for him and he said rather disappointedly I guess not. I explained that I thought he had been joking, but that I would get together with him for coffee. Sunday came and he didn't come, but he did email me to tell me he got called into work and that is why he didn't come over. We have been chatting ever since.

Boy Number 3 - funny story. I have my picture in my profile in Yahoo, where I go by the name of loopyinfreddybeach, and I have a profile on a personals site that also has my picture. Last Friday night I went out and this guy came up to me and asked if I was loopy. at first I was gonna say something smartassed, but then decided against it. come to find out he recognized my picture from my profile on the personal site. He seems like a nice guy but we have determind that friends is where we are to stay...tho we did have a good time dancing and stuff that night.

so yeah fest or famon!!!

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Great Big Sea ROCKS!!!!!


As some of you know, I'm a huge GBS fan! I have been since the first time I seen them on the ECMA's. I've been to 4 concerts now and I have to say that they get better and better each and everytime I see them!!


I love these Newfie Boys! Tuesday night they rocked the Playhouse in Fredericton!
I originally thought...GBS at the playhouse? There is no place to dance or jump around, that isn't going to be very fun. However, I was proven soooo wrong! The acoustics were better, the show was more intimate/personal, and the boyz were really into the concert!


I've known I was going for a long time, however, I kinda forgot about it for a bit but was quickly reminded about it! I wasn't near as pumped up for the concert as I have been in the past..could have something to do with seeing them 4 times, but I was sooo pumped up afterwards!



I couldn't wait we had sixth row tickets and once we got there I was sooo excited to see them I don't think I stopped clapping and dancing since they strummed the first note!


There was a big debate on whether or not to take our cameras, I decided to just take mine anyways and I'm so glad I did..I got some awesome shots of the boyz, as you can see!


Alan and Sean were on a comedic rampage that night. It's been a long time since I have laughed that hard. Just remember "It's all about the proper use of utensils". They were getting ready to introduce a song to the crowd. Sean said "this is a song about a guy who is out wandering the streets after dark and is in kinda a depressed mood, when he looks up and sees the silouette of a woman in a window." then he takes a breath and says now folks he has the best of intension, I don't want you to get the wrong idea about him, he's really a good guy. He just wants to.......spoon on the couch.....and .... umm....watch Law and Order." As Alan starts to play the music from Law and Order on his guitar and the crowd busts up laughing. Later on this joke was brought up again "spoonin on the couch" Alan says "As opposed to....." Sean says "forking" again more laughter from the audience. Sean says "It's all about the type of utensil you are in the mood for" Song name "I'm a Rover"



They were introducing the song called "Charlie Horse". Alan says, "This is a song about a horse that fell through the ice. I'm not sure if you have had this problem in New Brunswick, but in NFLD it seems to have been quite a common occurance. At least there is a lot of songs about it anyway! Now I'm probably boring you with details here, but I want to explain something so that you don't get confused when you hear the song. Charlie is the name of the horse and Shave is a dude. So when I sing" as he strums the guitar and sings "Here's to Charlie Horse, here's to Shave the Master" I'm talking about a dude not" then he motions as if he's shaving his face and then his legs. Sean steps up and says "What if they had called him Wax?" Alan says "ohh that would hurt..but what type of wax? there are lots of different types" Sean says "I dunno, bikini, brazilian...Either one is good by me" More laughter. Alan starts to play the song then stops and says "I wonder what they would call it in Brazil?" He starts laughing and then starts right into the song.



Sean and Alan told one of the ushers to let us dance, as one of the ushers kept coming down and cleaning out the aisle. The Boyz said "These people paid to dance let them dance" It was awesome that they did that as I think everyone was a bit uncomfortable dancing in the playhouse...not that it stopped most of us!


For the last Encore they came out and sang "Old Brown's Daughter" without instruments, and without mics. It was amazing!


Sunday, March 12, 2006

On My Vacation

I realize that my vacation has been over for well...a week! LOL But I thought that I would update you on all the happenings!

My Wednesday meeting a client went really well. He was impressed with the tour saying it gives him a better appreciation of me and my job. (wish there were more out there like that! LOL) He took me out for lunch...well really I picked the place and he paid. Jen suggested the pasta buffet at the Delta. Which was a good idea, however Chris showed up with jeans and a knit wool sweater, so I thought maybe the Delta wasn't the best idea and settled for the Hilltop. I really enjoyed my food, the conversation and company.

Thursday I went home to mom and dads and for the first time I stepped inside the Doaktown Tim Hortons. It still amazes me that there is a Tim Hortons there! LOL And to top it all off I won a Donut on my Roll up the rim!!! LOL

Friday I headed home and out to the clubs that evening. I had a good time as I always do.

Saturday I went to my sign language course and yes I showed up ON TIME!!! LOL and not hung over! It doesn't take long to wake up in those classes as you have to rely only on your eye sight...so no sleeping! I went out to the bar on Saturday night again and again had a good time.

Sunday Mom and dad came over to have a look at my couch (as it was broken) Dad developed a plan to fix it, which of course I didn't understand at the moment, however I understand it now that it's fixed! LOL

That was my vacation! I already wrote about JA finishing up so you are all updated until this last week! I'll save my update from Saturday night for Tomorrows post.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

JA Wrapped Up

I have to say I'm relieved that JA is over for another year. This year was more stressful then any of my other years, as Tim and I took on the wrapping up ourselves, of course the other advisors pitched in when they could and the achievers were there to do most of the work.

Tim and I have had some bumpy parts in the wrap up, some situations that we hadn't run into before, which made thing more difficult. We ended off coming off as a meanie to a couple of the kids, just because we couldn't do what she wanted us too. Ahh well can't always be the nice person!

Now we are on to our Futures Unlimited Banquet, which doesn't happen until April, but this is where the awards are handed out. I am keeping our fingers crossed for Company of the Year!!! I'll let you know in April what we get for awards!!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Sign Language

Sign language has always been something that has interested me. My friend, Jane, from high school's parents were deaf and I used to love watching them communicate and I did pick up a few word/signs from watching them. We currently have two deaf people at work, so management decided that they should offer a course on sign language so that people can communicate with these two people.

I got so excited about the course when Fonda mentioned it to me, and was all set to go, I didn't care how much it put me behind to pay the money to go I was going to take that course.

Saturday was our first lesson. The class starts at 9am and ends at 1pm. I can't believe how quickly the time goes by and I learned so much. I hope I don't forget it all before next Saturday!!! Since I am on vacation this week, I'm going to have to practice by teaching Troy and Janet!! LOL I'm sure they will love that!! haha! Maybe I"ll teach my mom too since I plan on going home for a day or so! Watch out mom..here I come!!!

All I can say is Thank you Fonda for telling me about the course!!!

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Olympics 2006

I love the Olympics, whether it be winter or summer, I can't seem to stop watching the events. Most of the time staying up way past bedtimes to see who's going to win or who is going on to the next round!

I have to say that this time Canada has made me so proud! Our current medal total is 22 I just went and checked because last time I looked there was 20 we were tied for 3rd in medals with Russia and we just pulled away by two!!! And we now sit one away from the US!!! This excites me so much.

Let's recap where our 22 Medals came from:

Women's Hockey - Gold!!! These girls are spectacular! I love watching their games and I actually enjoy them more then I do the men. The men get great tv coverage anyways seeing as they are all NHL players. I love the team spirit that the girls have and their determination makes their games exciting to watch!!

Men's Two Man Bobsleigh - Silver!! I find this sport so intense! You are watching these people get into a sled and speed (and I do mean speed) down a curvy hill to see who gets the fastest time. If I could ever try this sport just once I would be thrilled! I didn't actually watch this event but go boys go!!!

Cross Country Skiing - Women's Sprint - Gold!! I've tried cross country skiing once...It was ok, not something I would want to race in tho..to me they should have a snow shoe race in the Olympics, it would be the same haha! So great admiration to Chandra Crawford!!!

Cross Country Skiing - Women's Team Sprint - Silver!! Awesome job girls!!! Seriously, this sport is a lot of work and I really admire them for doing it!

Men's Curling - Gold!! - What an awesome game the gold medal one was! I'm sure all their games where, but I only got to see the gold medal game...there were some awesome moves made and I'm very very proud of our Newfie Curlers!!! My dad is upset that one Newfie gave up his spot so the old guy could go, I just hope they make it to the next Olympics so that guy gets his chance agian!

Women's Curling - Bronze!! - Could have had gold, but at least we got a medal. I try not to look down on them when they don't win, because they have a lot of pressure on them, they are after all representing their country. But a gold really would have been nice!

Men's Figure Skating - Bronze!!! - This medal shocked me...not that I didn't think he skated well, but because he wasn't thought of as a strong skater going into the competition. Maybe Jeffrey Buttle will be then next Elvis??? I doubt it, but I sure can hope!!!

Women's Moguls - Gold!!! - I don't understand all these ski events, or why any one would wanna go down a hill with a bunch of bumps on it...LOL But Very Proud of Jennifer Heil for bringing home the gold!

Speed Skating (this is where I get really exicted!!!)
Women's 500 M - Bronze!! - I have to say if there is one sport we excelled at this year it was definitely speed skating!!! Go Anouk Leblanc-Boucher!!!!
Women's 3000m Relay - Silver!!! And the list continues!
Men's Team Pursuit - Silver!!! Still more!!
Women's 1000m - Silver!!! This skater rocks!!! Cindy Klassen is bringing home 5 medals!!! 5..thst is huge!!!
Women's 1500M - Gold!! AND Silver!!!!
Women's 3000M - Bronze!!
Women's 5000M - Gold and Bronze!!
Women's Team Pursuit - Silver!! We rocked the Speed Skating world this year!!!

Men's Skeleton - Gold and Silver!!!! Not sure what sport this is but if I had to guess it'd be Skiing!!LOL

Women's Skeleton - Bronze!!!

Women's Snowboarding - Bronze!!!!

I've seen a few of the medal ceramonies for different events the women's hockey and one that I thought was skiing...Maybe the mogals..anyway, I got all teary eyed watching our Olympians singing the national anthem and looking ever so proud!

Now a quick note on the Men's Hockey....I have a few problems with our Men's hockey team. We send our "best" (let me define best..best NHL players..this annoys me). Number 1 problem they don't play together all year so they don't play well as a team..or at least I don't find they do anyways! Number 2 We always put a lot of pressure on them..meaning we EXPECT them to win Gold...and they don't and everyone gets disappointed..so I have started not expecting them to do anything and then i'm right on key with what happens!! LOL Now if more people would think that way instead of getting high hopes and then getting mad when they don't do anything! Those are my major problems with our Men's hockey team.

Go Canada Go!! We are rocking the Olympics this year!!!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Busy Busy Bee

I know it's been awhile since my last post, but I've been so busy!

A few posts ago I mentioned JA and my involvement in the company program. Well it is getting to the end of the program and things are needing to be done and as usual I am stressing. I know that it will all get done, and I have tons of support and people helping me finish up the loose ends, but.....I always get this stress going!!!
Next week is our last meeting and we have a report to finish, books to pass in and a power point presentation to complete! I feel almost sufficated by all this work.
I'm on vacation next week and you would think that would ease my mind a little bit, but I'm busy then too!

Here is my Schedule from now until the end of my vacation:

Thursday - 5am - Work, and prepare for grant meeting and training session
Friday - Midnight (as in Thursday night) - work, train and grant meeting
Saturday - 9am Sign language course begins (Every Saturday for the next 10 weeks)
Saturday - Evening/Night - Date (yes I have one...LOL) then maybe out to the bar with Dawn
Sunday - Work on shareholder's report with Tim (probably take most of the day....I am a perfectionist you know!)
Monday - Complete shareholders report and get it printed (JA)
Tuesday - Board meeting/shareholder's meeting (JA) (then end and a bit of a sigh of relief)
Wednesday - 9am - work, I know I'm on vacation, and I really am, however, there is a client coming into Fredericton that wants to take me to dinner to show appreciation of all my hard work and I guess he just likes me..I have no idea where I was going with that. Anyway, he's coming into work to get a tour of the building.
Thursday - Go to Doaktown
Friday - Come home from Doaktown
Saturday - Sign Language Course
Sunday - maybe karate..I don't know yet!

So see...no vacation for me..I'm more busy then usual!!! I'm gonna need a vacation from my vacation!!! haha Ohh well better to be busy then board right?!

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Dreams

I don't know if you guys remember you dreams, but I remember quite a few of them..Mostly the ones where I feel panic, anger, or complete joy.

Last night was an anger dream, I woke up this morning feeling very very mad and then I remembered the dream and realized why I was in a bad mood...so I began my it was just a dream talk to myself because sometimes I get really worked up over silly dreams.

In my dream, I was going for supper with a few friends, really the only ones I remember are Stephen, some girl I didn't know (but knew she worked with me). But I felt the presence of others in my dream. It was winter time as we were wearing our winter jackets. We were walking across a parking lot (I don't know where this was..some place I had never been to) We were all talking and having fun...then one of my friends asked the new girl where she was living...she said for right now in the basement with Stephen (being that we just broke up, I a little pissy) I started walking faster and towards my car, but I couldn't find it (not sure why there were only like 5 cars in the parking lot LOL) Stephen caught up to me and said I was going to tell you...I said not good enough. He said it had only been 2 weeks. I said whatever. I don't remember anything more of the conversation, other then my feeling for running home ended.Then the girl told one of my other friends that she and Stephen had been dating for 2 months..which would have cut into the time that he and I were dating.
My friend told me that the new girl had told her they had been dating a while, so I went to her and asked her how long, Stephen was standing beside her at this point, and she said awhile. I said no how F'ing long. she said 2 weeks I lied about the 2 months. I was so mad I got violent, and I don't get violent. I remember leaving. Then Stephen was there apologizing, I told him there was no use...That it was over..No friendship/no relationship. I don't stand for cheaters and liars. I was crying in my dream, but no tears when I woke up.

Now, why couldn't I have continued my dream from earlier in the night? Troy and I looking for kittie treats!!! LOL it was much more interesting!!! And less aggravating!

See when dreams bother me they always seem so real...Almost scary!!!
Anyway I thought I would share my dream with all you guys who read this...Even the ones who don't post!
BTW, Stephen, if you just happen for some reason to read this, I hope you don't take this as in I'm hung up on you, because I'm really not, there are many things I would love to say to you, but they have to be done in person and well I haven't seen you to talk to you since we broke up, not even to get my jammies! LOL

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Daily Jigsaw 02-08-06

Everyday I do the daily jigsaw puzzle and when Thomas used to live here, he and I would compete to see who had the best time! I thought I would share the site with you guys and see if any of you can beat my time! haha..I'm sure you are busy people, but take a few mins out of your day and give it a try!

http://www.shockwave.com/sw/content/jigsawpuzzles

Once there click on the Play Free Online and the fun begins!

Todays puzzle is a bee and a flower. It took me 9:20 to complete! A pretty good time for me!

Monday, February 06, 2006

Sorry

I have offended some of my sometime commenters. So I would like to now mention the people that post, sometimes on my site.

Thank you to Tim, Melissa, Monique, Mom and Sherisse for posting a comment when they have something to say..I really do appreciate it.

I just get frustrated because when I go to my friend Jen's blog a lot of people post comments, I'm sure she hounds them until they do (as she has gotten on my case some too). My "I Give Up" post was a little harsh, but I didn't really mean it that way, I meant it to get people to comment on here more often so that I know that I'm not writing this thing as a waste of time, and that people actually do read it!

Anyway I'm really sorry to those who I've upset by that post...

kitties






Diary Entry #1

Dear Jen,

Today was a pretty good day for it being a Monday and all.

It was my first day as Team Co-ordinator (No mom not a promotion, just extra responsibilities, same pay and only for 6 months)(that was In case she decides to read this). It was a busy day, I know how much a team coordinator does, as I have done it in the past, just not with this group.

After work, I was supposed to go walking with Darcy and Melissa, however, someone forgot their sneaks and couldn't go. (hint: Darcy and Melissa went anyways)

I decided to go visit my aunt and uncle for a while this afternoon. I got there right after work and like always they offered to feed me (what like I need to gain weight! LOL) I declined. We sat in the living room and talked for a bit, but I was actually very anxious to see the pictures my aunt had taken while away on her cruise! (she just got back last week)

Finally, the time had come for me to "help" her upload the pictures to her computer, she is a bit computer illiterate, so she really did need my help. She took some beautiful pictures of the water and of their trip. One picture was of a really really cute guy, I asked his name, but she didn't know it. She explained that every time they got off the ship, there was a photographer there to take their picture, then of course they wanted you to pay money for the picture. He was one of the photographers. I told her that she could have brought him home for me...I would have enjoyed that present!!!haha.

After we finished looking at the pictures, she reminded me that she had a dress she wanted to give me...Let me rephrase that...She had a skirt and a top for me. She joined Simply For Life and lost a ton of weight, so she's giving me all the stuff that doesn't fit her anymore. The skirt is really cool, not so sure on the top, but the way I see it..It'll work for work clothes! I don't care if I wear it outside of work or not..As long as it suits for work!

Then as I was getting ready to leave, she disappeared. She reappeared with a bracelet for me, she said it was for helping her with the computer. (she has tried to pay me countless times, but I always decline) It's a really cute bracelet and my description would never do it justice, so I've taken a picture of it for you!


This is kinda how it looks when it's on...LOL


Yes it is little Dolphins!!! Cute eh?!?!


In it's entirety

Anyways, that is all for right now, I am going to post some pictures of my kitties, cuz it's been awhile!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

I Give Up

I seriously do!

I rack my brain trying to think of something interesting to write about so that you will enjoy my blog. but as far as I know i'm writing this just for Jen! No one else is reading it..once in awhile my mom, sometimes Melissa..but mostly just Jen.

So all I have to say is...don't bother reading it if you aren't going to comment..because unless you leave a comment, I don't know that you have even read it! And right now it seems I'm only writing for Jen!

Saturday, January 28, 2006

I wanna be a ______ when I grow up!

We've all said it when we were kids, and some of us still do to this day.

As some people know, I volunteer for Junior Achievement on Tuesdays. This is a program for high school students that teaches them the basics of business, how to set up a business, how to produce a product, how to market their idea and how to sell the product. It's a great program, and I really enjoy working with the kids.

There is this one girl in the group, Emily, who entertains me so much. Emily is the company's VP of Finance. If we had an award for the biggest drama queen she would definitely come in first! She's so funny though. Just before Christmas, we took all the kids out selling including the executive, who aren't normally allowed to go out selling, because they have other duties to tend. Emily was in my car when we went out, she flips from one subject to another faster then me or my mom(if you can imagine that!). I find it hard to keep up with her conversations.

Anyway, one of the topics in the car that night was what the girls wanted to be when they grew up. Emily listed off 7 things. I asked her if she planned on being all those things at once, and she said no, some of them she was double thinking and wasn't sure of anymore. Here is what I remember from her list...I hope I can get them all, she talks pretty fast too! haha. Guidance Counceller, Nurse, Cop, Chef, Business Owner, Actress, and ......Ohh I forget the last one! Maybe Tim will remember when he reads this and be nice enough to post it for me!

I asked Emily why she wanted to be a Cop and not a RCMP Officer. She stated very bluntly, because she wanted to carry a gun. haha. I didn't even know that RCMP didn't have guns, anyway, we all got a chuckle out of that.

It reminded me of when I was a little girl, and all the things I wanted to be when I grew up. It would be nice, if everyone who reads this would post what they said in answer to this question when they were kids.

I wanted to be a teacher, I think that is one thing that I actually stayed pretty consistant with, until my last few years of school, when I decided that I might like to be an accountant or a doctor. I opted for the doctor, and well we all know how that worked out. UPS is not a clinic, therefore it's safe to say I did not become a doctor! haha.

Protection

Seems I have had my cry, I still get tears in my eyes, but it seems the worst is over.

I was talking to a friend the other day and we were talking about protecting our hearts. We protect our hearts and our egos, which makes it hard to get answers to the questions we ask ourselves.

Think about it...why don't you ask the cute guy/girl out? Scared of rejection right? Scared of being embarrassed? Both probably come into play as to why we don't walk up to the person we are interested in and tell them how we feel. But will you ever find "love" if you do not at least open your heart up a little bit to face that rejection? How do you move past that fear? I think everyone has it, and those who don't, need to teach classes or hold therapy sessions. haha.

I wish I had some advice to give on how to protect your heart, but still find the answers we all seek. "does he/she think i'm cute?" "do I have a chance?" "Are they just playing with my emotions/leading me on?"

I guess this is where that saying comes into play "It's better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all" I get these from my mom I think...she seems to be full of them!

It's funny when you are in school, boyfriends started out as being a guy you talked to on the phone every night or once a week, then they stemed into something more then that, you actually started dating, but it seemed so much easier back then. Maybe it was just me because I grew up in a small town and there wasn't much of a choice in guys...haha.

Now things are complicated, now I'm not looking for just a person to date, I'm looking for a soul mate. Possibly this is my problem, thinking too much, but that is me and I can't change that, trust me I have tried to, but it doesn't work.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

I Cried

I really have nothing to post about, but thought I would post this before Jen started yelling at me at work to update my blog!

I've had a lot of things going on in my personal life lately, which I do not care to discuss on here. Let's just say it's left me feeling pretty crappy about myself, about the kind of life I'm living.

It has made me think about what is important to me, what should be, and how to fix the problems I have in my life right now.

I don't know how long it will take me to figure all this stuff out, but I hope my friends can bare with me until I do.

I cried yesterday, I'm on the verge of tears again today. I feel like I'm falling apart. Is it because it's been a long time since I have cried? Is it because what is going on in my personal life that I am trying my hardest to push off really really does bug me? More then I admit to myself or to my friends (even my closest) Yesterday, I cried for an hour. About what you might ask, stupid sentimental commercials on tv, the mess I've made, how I feel so crappy, how I feel alone, how I'm confused on what I want and who I want to be. I would say that I felt better after my cry, but I really don't and didn't. Is it because I've been working a messed up shift for the last two days and I'm just really tired? I don't know, but I wish these feelings would just go away.

Friday, January 13, 2006

My Plan for 2007

I know we have just started 2006, but I have a plan for 2007 that requires me to save money from now until then...what does this mean...this means Lisa will be very little fun until after the fall of 2007. Which really sucks!!!!

My plan is to go to Scotland for my birthday or the summer of 2007. This all depends on how my vacation pans out at work. I'm really keeping my fingers crossed for the summer, as Melana tells me that the fall is pretty crappy over there, rainy and cold.

Melana has my weeks all planned out for me. I'm sure she will be working for some of it, but there is lots of family over there for me to spend time with...which also equals pretty much FREE room and board!!! and lots of traveling and seeing lots of things. I'm thinking it's going to cost me a million dollars to go over there...LOL well at least a few thousand. So I'm going to be scrimping my pennies until I go over and then again when I get back to make sure I get caught up on everything!

I know my mom is worried I'm going to go over there and never come back, however, I have reasons for coming back...number one I can't be that far away from my MOMMY and DADDY!!! Number two...what about my friends?? unless they are willing to move over there with me, then I'm not staying!! Those are two awesome reasons for coming home!

Things I need for my trip....number one MONEY and lots of it...LOL So to all family members who are going to be shopping for me for birthdays and christmas I don't want Presents this year...(except for Aunt Gail..as I do need new Jammies for my trip!!) I don't want Canadian Money, I want GBP. (If I get Canadian i"m likely to spend it on things I need for my trip..like new outfits and stuff like that) Number two a SD Card for my camera. I have a feeling I will be taking a million pictures so I need to have room for them all on my camera, unless I take my laptop, then I don't need that...hmm problem with plug ins over there I think...ahh best leave the lappy at home! I think that's really it...but I may think of more.

According to the website for Zoom Airlines, I'm allowed to bring 20KG of cargo with me. I have a feeling that 10KG of that will be stuff people will send over to Scotland with me...stuff for Melana, stuff for all the other relatives...hmm possibly Christmas Presents...save on the cost of mailing them!! Instead I'll spend 700 dollars on a plane ticket!! LOL

It should be an awesome trip and I can't wait to go!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Random Thoughts

-Jen's been buggin me for an update saying that I updated a whole bunch in one day and haven't updated since....so this is my update.

-So one of the worst things is knowning you have something but not being able to get it. Like for example...knowing you have a different shift/job at work and not being able to go there right away. Or ordering something off the internet...you know it's yours but you can't have it until it gets delivered! I am going to be moving to 5am to 130pm shift and I can't wait to go, but I can't go until Angela leaves the shift.....I've tried kicking her out but apparently I have no say in that!

-I live with 2 of the silliest people I've ever met. Thomas and Troy. They entertain the hell out of me. They get on their rants and all I can do is laugh. Especially when Thomas goes on about women fire fighters. I have to agree if I was in a burning building on the top floor, I don't think I would feel safe if a woman came to save me and carry me down the stairs. Just my opinion not that i don't think women can do it...I do and there are some that do, however I just would feel better if a cute fireman came to my rescue!

-Days of Our Lives.....Jen and I discuss this weekly. How stupid we think the actors/actresses are, how the storylines are so dumb, and how mean it was for them to kill Zack off just to save Claire. I mean it is a soap opera and I don't expect grand things, however, it has gotten so boring lately that i wonder if there is a reason to bother watching it! How many times can a soap play the whole who is the babies father storyline?

-Men...ok Guys..or even Boys. They all say that women are complicated....I wonder if Gay guys would agree with women when we say guys are complicated? They probably would...guys are more likey to not know what they want in a relationship, they hide their feelings, and they are just out right confusing. I know women can be complicated, lets face it...girls change their minds a lot. But we know for the most part what we want, most women find it very difficult to hide their feelings.

-Ok, I've been single for 2 years. Which is a long time for me, especially when I'm known to jump from one relationship to another. So now I'm at a point where I know I don't need anyone to make me happy, I know how independant I can be. So for the two years I've been single, I've dated several times, but usually nothing more then a first date...rarely making it to the second date, mostly I have become more picky when it comes to possible mates. Then all the sudden out of the darkness (yes darkness) rises two guys at once. The saying that goes with this is when it rains it pours!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

New Years

Well...I don't have much to say. I didn't take any pictures, because I didn't know anyone there except for Brad.

We had some drinks and played a game with the boys against the girls where the boys literally skunked us! Not even one piece of pie...this one guy that was there Chris maybe? anyway he knew the answer to everything....they kept telling him that he needed a life.

I met some really great people, who I will probably never see again, but they were all great.

That in a nut shell was my New Years.